love doesn't expire

2008-07-22T19:47:00.001-07:00

Olivia - Sometimes When We Touch - Olivia

2008-05-05T09:18:00.000-07:00

MOVED

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2008-05-02T06:30:00.000-07:00

after a week's of school, im drained. lectures has been all rights (: all within an hour. i lovelove wed, cause its only one hour (which means i can self-declare) hahahas! still trying to figure out the tutorials and i think my new classmates arent that bad.

&&&& all the slacking we can get! hahahas!

now my head is spinning. i think my eyesight is getting real bad. i could hardly see clearly what im typing. oh my. i will let pictures do the talking (:

PRESENTING TO YOU MY BELOVED SISTER!

hahahas. she always do this and set it as my phone's wallpaper! OH MY.

2008-04-30T09:35:00.000-07:00

school is getting more and more exciting each day as the teachers revealed things like the overseas exchange programme! i was totally looking forward for that or something. its cool to stay there independently and have buddies staying with you under the cosy little room with the fire burning and seeping a cup of hot coffee. hahahas. cool right! but there's still work to do!

joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hardjoey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard joey must work hard

(!!!)

on the second day of school, teachers had already started to tell us more about the tests. like how to prepare, score well and all. could even feel the pressure and stress. tutorials to be done, going through lecture notes. OH WELLS. i believe God will guide me through! (:

on a lighter note, our PEM teacher given us chocolates! hhahas. a way to bribe us to treat her better. and they even give us a sample of perfume which hope that we find our "scent of belonging to CRM." hahahas. i find it rather cutee lahhs!

more excitement to come pleaseeeeeee (:

2008-04-27T22:02:00.000-07:00

meet my new pets at home! teeheehee! i bought 25 fishes (i-dont-know-what-its-called) and 3 guppies. but on the 3rd day, the three guppies died :( i think because my water doesnt have dissolved oxygen. oh wells. but seeing them swim here and there are really lovely! (:

school is starting tomorrow! happy that im able to meet my friends! yet feeling apprehensive. like will i make new friends? it is tiring to make new friends sometimes. to learn about another person, to get along with another person or another Group of Friends.

Yet i know that i have girlfriends! a strange thing, relationship, connection,whatever you call it. But its knowing that you can be your ugliest or your best, laugh till your cheeks turn red and hurt. Getting angry inside and saying 'i hate you' yet knowing that it evaporates the moment it solidifies into words. Then laugh over something stupid. that's girlfriends (:

2008-04-23T10:46:00.000-07:00

the girls' day out to haji lane and settling to gloria jean for talks (: since the holidays started, i haven been seeing them lahhs. and yesterday was the bomb! all the talking and laughters. im really thankful to have friends like them, who never fail to make my day! i lovelove them! :D

2008-04-23T10:36:00.000-07:00

funan mall in search for laptops, subway by the river, spilling of icelemontea, cockroach/lizard on the run, fort canning park, climbing of stairs, experiences in the darkness, timbre studio, sweaty, so not dainty, photobooth, long walks! the night was really gooood! (: though its really early to go back home. hahaas. i cant help, but mum set a curfew. I ENJOYED!

2008-04-21T12:22:00.000-07:00

painting skittles

It's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.

-Alfred, Lord Tennyson

2008-04-19T15:12:00.000-07:00

changed my job to being a receptionist. and work was really boring. there was practically nothing to do except just collecting letters and mailing out letters. all i did was read magazine, newspaper, read the bible and stare into space.

at times i was so bored till .... i did sudoku, read the street directory, fold aeroplanes, play and fiddle with the photocopier, doddling on papers and walking rounds the office. but after its not a really that bad job as it pays me well (: hahahas. and two days stucked in the office is done.

but as i was sitting and just doing nothing, God reminded me of my parents. cause i have been working till really late and i hardly see my dad. each time i reached back home, he will be sleeping already. but two days ago, he called and asked where i went to and all (:

then i decided to brainstorm about my parents.
why i ♥ my mum and dad.

1. Mummy Lim
- when she knows that my braces hurt and can't chew anything, she would prepare meals that are soft like the porridge which i lovelove much!
- she waits for me to come back home even if it is really late at night.
- she knows and understand what im going through and talks to me at times.
- she finds me silly. hahaaa.

2. Daddy Lim
- he never doubts when i take pocket money or extra money from him.
- he respects my privacy.
- he calls me when he haven seen me for very long.
- he cares even though he doesnt show it much.

i thank God for parents who really cares and understands me! (:

2008-04-19T15:10:00.000-07:00

school is starting next next weeeek! i dont know why. but kinda looking forward to it (: maybe cause its a new class and there will be more people i can know. still, yenfenn and serbian are the best buddies ever! hahahas. SEE THAT SEE THAT! i will be praying that school will be more interesting then sem1 and that we can bond together closer (:

looking forward to meet them next week to catchup on the stories that they have :D

2008-04-16T01:16:00.000-07:00

some memories we ignore. others, little half-stories, we tell again and again, trotting them out for friends - and even people we barely know - like scrubbed children. the rosy image parents project, exactly what they hoped and imagined our lives would be: bringing the little child home from the hospital, making silly jingles about the shops and people they passed, turning everything into song. the events in a child's life is unpredictable.

2008-04-13T23:07:00.000-07:00

im so complaining about the hair.

2008-04-13T22:00:00.000-07:00

HOT

HOTTER.

HOTTEST.

its coming on the april 21st! (:
wheeeeeee.

2008-04-09T23:57:00.000-07:00

love, like rain, can nourish from above, drenching couples with a soaking joy. but sometimes, under the angry heat of live, love dries on the surface and must nourish from below, tending to its roots, keeping itself alive.

it has been awhile since i last blog. this week is rather hectic. ironically, when you want your holidays to be sweeeet sailing, its all packed up with things-to-do. and when you dont, the holidays are as boring as ever. that was what happened to me.

today was the first day working as a telemarketer. nothing much but picking up the phone and dailing to the people. INTERESTINGLY.....
my findings in the workplace:
- everyone there is a christian "wow"
- everyone there is from CHC
- everyone there takes cell meetings seriously
- everyone there talks about church and their cell meetings
- everyone there have devotions together every monday morning

hearing a cell meeting held in an office next to where i was sitting, makes me feel like having complacency over my spiritual life. lets continue hanging on to God and be hot for him! (:

2008-04-06T22:19:00.000-07:00

lost love is still love. it takes a different form, that's all. you cant see their smiles or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around. but when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. you nuture it. you had it. you dance with it. life has to end but love doesnt.

faith

2008-04-02T23:58:00.000-07:00

do we follow the faith report / the fear report?

im following the faith report (: because my God is bigger than anything else in this world!

2008-04-02T23:25:00.000-07:00

i dont wish for a longer holiday. all i want is go back to school :(

ive been staying home all day long. been reading the books borrowed from cass, practicing piano, watching tvee, giving tuition, snacking, spending time with God and stop and stare. kind of a boring life that i have. oh wells. tomorrow will be a better day (:

its a new month, APRIL (: and new resolutions for the month! im going to try my best to complete april's resolutions.

1. help my tuition kid to do well in her upcoming midyear exams.
2. complete 2 more storybooks.
3. drink at least 8 cups of water daily.
4. do some catchups with friends.
5. practice another 30 more mins on piano
6. try selling muffins! kind of impossible..

i will stop at number 6. cause i cant think further. holidays are boring arent they. hope im able to complete all these (:

2008-03-31T11:03:00.000-07:00

cass joeyboy leonard con and me headed for a concert at potong pasir CC after service, after nua-ing at cass house. it was both leonard and joeyboy's childhood friend that was playing (: it wasnt so bad. and now the tune is in my head.

had supper or rather dinner at chompchomp (: con was so filled that he couldnt help but feel horrible, more horrible than being drunk.

oh wait. joke of the day. i guess too much nua-ing at home and create such hilarous moments! inculding installments and installation. haaaaaa.

joeygirl: my school's extending.
cass: huh? how they extend? which building?
joeygirl: i meant extending the school holidays!
bro and joeyboy: ha ha ha ha.

such moments and conversations are worth the time! (:

2008-03-30T11:02:00.000-07:00

friday was the last day of work and decided to give ourselves a treat (: headed down to bugis where ive got to know friends like yvonne and peier. i've got to know them better. and realise that they arent that bad (: a hilarous gang and all. i couldnt help but laugh at peier as she gives imaginary and dramatic actions all the way. hahaha.

we went to zhong qing to eat steamboat. my first time eating and sitting near to the gaseline made both my cousin and i giddy. but overall was not bad!

interview on saturday was unsuccessful :( which means i still have to continue to job hunt. but maybe a week's break will be fine :D :D :D hehs.

2008-03-27T21:13:00.000-07:00

your works are wonderful (:

i stand amazed.

Sometimes life makes you feel like a one-stop station. where there are questions questions questions. but you know that you will never get the answer back. and as we asked God to change us to be more like him, He revealed to us the issues in life. and we came to realise how much we have fallen short. it makes us want to run away and deny the truth. but God reminded me that all the more we have to cling unto him as he worked in our lifes.

lets hang on (:

2008-03-27T20:58:00.000-07:00

work is coming to an end tomorrow (: wheeeeee. and the amazing things that we have was that we have free goodies while distributing the flyers. examples are daisy flowers, toothpaste, UIC detergents sample, ruler, tissue papers, magnets, sweets and many more. ive almost collect all the junks back home. hahahas.

and today ive got a sunburnt on both my face and hands. super red and painful. but i guess it wil subside within a day or two. just by distributing flyers can also be sunburnt. my mum say that i was dumb enough to stand under the sun. hahaha. and i totally agree with that statement she made.

oh wells. ANYWAYS. IVE GOT GOOOOOD NEWS TO SHARE! my school starts at 28th april. it was dragged down to another two weeks. i dont know if it was good news or bad news. but will consider good news. that means ive got more days to prepare for school and all (:

2008-03-24T23:26:00.000-07:00

joey has got a new job! (: its flyer distribution! hehheh! today was my first day of a brand new work. i do hope that the pay could come fast. sounds rather materialistic isnt it. but school is reopening sooooon. means time for new clothes to flow into the wardrobe (:

i do have loads of thanksgiving! in all circumstances, give thanks! :D

#1 ive passed all my modules! inculding accountings! i was so scared to receive my results that my heart beated real fast and i couldnt pray in a proper state of mind. but i thank God for his guidance.

#2 ive a super cute brother! (: he always make me smile and laugh much!

#3 thank God for his provision for another new job! (:

#4 ohhhh. ive got into my specialisation! wheeeee. its customer relationship management. which means i get to mix around with serbian and yenfenn in my class! (: (: (: i really need to work even harder next year!

#5 did quite alot of catchups with friends and all.

"anyways,that is what brothers and sisers are for, to make each other's lives as difficult as possible for each other as they grow up. it forms a great basis for life, toughens you up."
hahahhas! emmmma, if you are looking at this, so dont mind doing dishwashing all weeeeek? will toughen you up. heeeeeee.

2008-03-24T00:07:00.000-07:00

to the beloved drag queen! (:

enjoyed the times we had at workplace. uh. maybe the talking and talking and the toilet breaks, checking out the bloom makeups esp beige and nude colours, finding things that are worth the buy, sharing of your schoollife. and yes, i remember. KARMA. and the worse part, sian diao. your favourite phrase. HAHAHAS!

i will always remember you as the sasa part timer xiao mei.

heeeeeeeeeeeee!

2008-03-17T23:58:00.000-07:00

today was my second day of work. and its tiring yet fun. i was in charge of the perfume sector and all the time i was spraying perfumes for people, now i think im having a horrible smell in me even after i bathe.

for the start, i was feeling so idle at work because there wasnt much customers. and i decided to ask the customers if they like the brand yadah yadah yadah. these really made me busy and all. and i was talking to my mum that work was tedious and all (maybe i like to emphasise on my patheticness) then she stopped replying. looks like she doesnt want to associate with a tired and feeling shagged 18 year old. hahahas.

why i love my job
- it's only 30 mins away from home
- the workplace has almost everything that you can get
- it brings in the bread for me to spend
- i can 'people-spot' once again. and thoughts feeling my mind
- i made new friends
- i dont have to do dish-washing at home cause dinner is outside.

why i dislike my job
- i have to dress like women in black
- i cant sit down until break time comes
- the managers are always looking around, much tension
- because im working full shift tomorrow

overall, i really thank God for his provision (: and to be able to connect with my 'colleagues' as they are friendly and niceee! work aside, me got a heavy heart. my working timeslots clashes with santification week. and i only manage to change slot with another part timer for a day. pray!

2008-03-15T17:55:00.000-07:00

just sitting there for awhile watching the world go by. loved catching snippets of people conversations as they walked by, it gave us a sneaky peak into the lives of others. loved to guess what people did for a living, where they were headed to as they rushed by, where they study, if they were attached anot... it was the best place for people spotting. my school canteen (: create little scenarios in our heads to pass the time. that is what my group of friend does when its break time. hahahhas. i miss them all.

to think of school i dread. cause im receiving my results really sooooon. ive put in much effort in studying. okays, i guess abit more from semester1. but i reallly dont want to get low grades nor take supp paper. please pray for meeee! :D

on a lighter note, i've gotta job! like finally (: thank god for his provision!

2008-03-15T16:55:00.000-07:00

cass and joeyboy came over to my house yesterday. because my house has really nothing to entertain them, we played the piano and guitar in a lazy and hot afternoon. could literally melt away in the sunny day. haaaa. i enjoyed their accompany! i thank God for brother and sister like these! (:

2008-03-13T23:45:00.000-07:00

at the sound of the midnight. meetup with wenyen, yunyu, kahyuen, wenling, wayne, joeyboy and leonard before hand to get ready for cass surprise party! (: with pandan whipped cream cake and cold ice ready. HAHAHAS.

how can her 18th birthday be dull. HEEEEE. we slapped the cake and ice on her causing her to be wet and having the pandan smell. but i do hope she like the surprise that we planned, maybe a year ago, months ago, or right after her 17th birthday (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CASS! & had the best night of our entire lives

In God alone

2008-03-11T01:34:00.000-07:00

headed down to esplanade today. i didnt know there was a library there! i was amazed at the structures and all. there wasnt any fiction or non-fiction books. only music scores, literature books, films and theathe works. there was great scenerey toooo!

it was a day where i spend with God alone. He reminded me that He's Emmaunel which is God with us. and nothing beats the assurance of God who speaks in ways that are so amazing, at the time of need and in the most encouraging ways that breaks your heart. and how great his creations are. the sun, the clouds, the birds and the lovely weather.

i stood amazed at the wonders of God's works once again (:

2008-03-10T23:56:00.000-07:00

a treat from birthday girl! (:

after service, we headed down to changi airport to have an outing together. and settled into breeeks with a treat from cassandra! had loads of updates from cellmates, EATING, and and surprises that doesnt really seems surprises. haha. but i enjoyed myself (: and do hope that the upcoming birthday girl enjoy herself too!

the cell group!

the lovely girl! (:

heading to T3.

when butt itchs and sticked to the pole.

and another session of eating at swensons.

2008-03-08T23:57:00.000-08:00

went to town with cass which was also a day when i taught cassandra to be thick skinned (: to ask for ballooons! flea market, ballloooons, muji-ed, wisma. seeing balloons all around orchard was preeetty! especially the bright colours all over. red blue green yellow pink :D

i did enjoyed myself with all the shameless askings and teachings. HEHS.

2008-03-08T01:05:00.000-08:00

watched leap years today with shirley. and i think its pretty goood for a local movie (: In three words, I can sum up everything I've learnt about life: IT GOES ON. - Robert Frost.

i was nagged at mummy again. and this time was the longest lecture. about not practicing hard in my piano lessons. its really scary when you see the amount of fees paid and the exam fees too. i felt like i wasted quite alot of money as i didnt put much effort in learning. but i dont want to be weighted down by burdens for the sake of passing exams.

Yet sometimes it's so diffuclt. Strings pulling me, calling me to be this, to have this. I just want to be found in God's presence, to be who you are calling me to be. I don't want to be burdened by the yoke of worldly stuffs. i pray that i will work and practice harder. My heart wants to dance like I'm free again for God you have come to mould me. your breath of life has set me freeee (:

2008-03-06T12:06:00.000-08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth

check-ed in?

2008-03-05T01:25:00.000-08:00

have you checked in today?

i spend the day staying home, baking muffins. and it turned out to be unsuccessful :( the first one i did was chao-da. and the second one was alrights, but still. the taste tastes like cake. oh wells. hope that the next attempt will be a better one! (:

in the evening went to vivo with cass and joeyboy to catch meet the spartans. the movie was kind of lame and i didnt like it. but now i know potatoe skin can be eaten and high in fibre. HAHAHA. i rushed back home, i love love love the smell in the night where it is chilly and nice, especially when it is raining. super lovely! :D

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wanna share this poem that pastor khong shared last sunday. i thought that it was reaally nice and touching. God reallly love love love us this much!

A minister passing through his church
in the middle of the day,
Decided to pause by the altar
and see who had come to pray.

Just then the back door opened,
a man came down the aisle,
The minister frowned as he saw
the man hadn't shaved in a while.

His shirt was kind of shabby
and his coat was worn and frayed,
the man knelt, he bowed his head,
then rose and walked away.

In the days that followed,
each noon time came this chap,
each time he knelt just for a moment,
a lunch pail in his lap.

Well, the minister's suspicions grew,
with robbery a main fear,
He decided to stop the man and ask him,
"What are you doing here?"

The old man said, he worked down the road.
Lunch was half an hour.
Lunchtime was his prayer time,
for finding strength and power.

"I stay only moments, see,
because the factory is so far away;
as I kneel here talking to the Lord,
this is kind of what I say:
"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS JIM CHECKING IN TODAY.

"The minister feeling foolish,told Jim, that was fine.
He told the man he was welcome
to come and pray just anytime.

Time to go, Jim smiled,
said"Thanks."
He hurried to the door.

The minister knelt at the altar,
he'd never done it before.
His cold heart melted, warmed with love,
and met with Jesus there.
As the tears flowed, in his heart,

he repeated old Jim's prayer:
"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, LORD,
HOW HAPPY I'VE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND EACH OTHER'S FRIENDSHIP
AND YOU TOOK AWAY MY SIN.
I DON'T KNOW MUCH OF HOW TO PRAY,
BUT I THINK ABOUT YOU EVERYDAY.
SO, JESUS, THIS IS ME CHECKING IN TODAY."

Past noon one day,the minister noticed
that old Jim hadn't come.
As more days passed without Jim,
he began to worry some.

At the factory, he asked about him,
learning he was ill.
The hospital staff was worried,
but he'd given them a thrill.

One week that Jim was with them,
brought changes in the ward.
His smiles, a joy contagious.
Changed people, were his reward.

The head nurse couldn't understand
why Jim was so glad,
when no flowers, calls or cards came,
not a visitor he had.

The minister stayed by his bed,
he voiced the nurse's concern:
No friends came to show they cared.
He had nowhere to turn.

Looking surprised, old Jim spoke up
and with a winsome smile;
"the nurse is wrong, she couldn't know,
that in here all the while
everyday at noon He's here,
a dear friend of mine,you see,

He sits right down, takes my hand,
Leans over and says to me:
"I JUST CAME AGAIN TO TELL YOU, JIM,
HOW HAPPY I HAVE BEEN,
SINCE WE FOUND THIS FRIENDSHIP,
AND I TOOK AWAY YOUR SIN.
ALWAYS LOVE TO HEAR YOU PRAY,
I THINK ABOUT YOU EACH DAY,
AND SO JIM, THIS IS JESUS
CHECKING IN TODAY."

(: doesnt it warms your heart?

Reaching for You

2008-03-02T23:24:00.000-08:00

I can't believe the way
Your love has got a hold on me
Each morning I wake to find You near

You lift me above my fears
And set my feet on solid ground
All of my days belong to You
And I breathe in Your breath of life that fills my heart

You are my all consuming fire
I stand here before You
In wide opened wonder
Amazed at the glory of You
The power of heaven
Revealing Your purpose in me
As I'm reaching for You

2008-03-01T21:40:00.000-08:00

Sunrays, clear skies, tree frames, staring out of the window.
I like the green, I like the blue, I like the spectrum. Best of all I like how it reminds me of....
sunshine (:

weekends are here. i spend the day reading a book! its cat and dog theology. it was real and true each time i read a sentence, and my heart was just sinking with great guilt.

there was a question asked, "How many of you know Christians who are totally joyless?" The majority of people in our audiences raise their hands. They have discovered one reason why so many Chrisitians are joyless. Their salvation is basically fire insurance, and they are merely walking away from hell, focused on themselves. They have never discovered the treasure. Think about it. There is no joy in walking away from hell. Relief? YES.

We are focused on how they can be blessed by God that they never have time to think of people from other countries, much less to invite them to become a part of their lives and from that to make God real. Not only we are focused only on what God does for us and not on what God wants us to do in and through us.

i prayed that i will not let myself be the focus. but let God be my piority and i will continue finding the treasure of life (:

2008-02-25T13:40:00.000-08:00

yesterday, i woke up with the most irritable sore throat and slight cough. and it got worse off in the night, fever. the feeling was really 'im dying soon' had to pop pills and i spent the whole night sleeping yesterday and today 2/3 of the day lying on my bed :(

the thing that im most upset is, its just the start of my holidays and this is happening. i had to miss movie with cass and joeyboy. and i cant go out until im all well. was rumaging through my old stuffs and found a blue box where all the cards and letters were. i really miss miss secondary school.

lets seee. the cards made by spiritual family (:

the bible verses we collect when i was still in sunday school.

i was shocked when i received this card! it was done by ots and alan (:

this is so cheeena pok :(

we did this in our civics and moral education time.

to affirm one another!

hahahas! i find this interesting. where arif and wy shared about the dimples things when they have it too! and arif mention that his are real and mine are imitation!

this was send by my primary school mate! we still keep in contact (:

this shows that im SOCIABLE OKAYS! HAHAHA.

ooookays. i found this in the box tooo.

-.- in the poka dot uniform. hehs!

alrights, my head is spinning already.
i hope i will get well soon.

PS. cass, get well soon too!

2008-02-23T01:32:00.000-08:00

hello hello hello

its has been two crazy long weeks due to exams. I can now heave a huge sigh of relief and sleep for 12 hours without that unnerving throb at the back of my head asking myself if I've done whatever I'm supposed to do, if my notes are completed, if my admin card is in my bag... etc etc etc.

Now my room is in complete mess. its pig-sty (as quoted from my mum) i guess tomorrow will be spring cleaning day. there have been alot of things running through my mind. tons of stuffs and catching up to be done.

Today was RACHEL'S BAPTISM DAY (: i dont know why, but i felt excited! i feel happy for her. pastor reminded us that when one got baptised, the heavens open and the dove flies down. i thought that might be a magnificent sight! hehs. we got for her lunchbox, sunflowers and a card!

isnt the lunch box prettty! with fruits, cup, bread, tissue and milk!

the card is made for two hours.

you might be wandering why we are giving such things to her.

here's the answer! (:

the end of the card!

Cell's Reunion Dinner

2008-02-23T01:05:00.000-08:00

we had cell reunion dinner at cell leader's house! (: pictures credit to kcrabby-patties!

we did the yu-sheng thing! (:

happy kids!

maybe not that happy.

the mad sisters i have! (:

she was drunk. HA.

2008-02-16T12:47:00.000-08:00

no more papaya faces.

no more watermelon

but because i have God (:

it is sufficient!

2008-02-14T01:24:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines!

Abundant love <3

its valentines! (: exams are making me miss out alot of things. but nonetheless, its still fun to hang out with cass and wy. we went to lido to catch PS iloveyou. oh my. its nice and heart-warming! :D

God just reminded me of spending quality time with our loved ones, like Jesus! (: in times of heart breaks, yet God is goood and so, so faithful. i can testify to that. God speaks the things our hearts want to hear, even the slightest encouragement fills the heart that much. when we were weak and in despair, our God is near. there is so much to thank God for. because he loves! :D

http://youtube.com/watch?v=RQRRmP_vY34

Better Than Life

Better than the riches of this world

Better than the sound of my friends voices

Better than the biggest dreams in my heart

and that's just the start

Better than getting what I say I need

Better than living the life that I want to

Better than the love anyone could give

Your love is

You hold me now in Your arms

You never let me go

And You oh

Lord made the sunshine

The moonlight and the nightsky

You give me breath and all Your love

I give my heart to You

Because I can't stop falling in love with You

I'll never stop falling in love with You

2008-02-12T23:37:00.000-08:00

im feeeling the tiredness in studying :(

but its only the 2nd day of study weeeeeeeeeeek.

teach me how to smile in times like this.

Happy Chinese New Year! (:

2008-02-11T00:46:00.000-08:00

Chinese New Year was a great blast! (:

all the visiting and meeting up with relatives. there was joy and fun as everyone gathers and talk. especially looking at the kids running up and down and their innocent faces!

today i had five families coming over to my house. OVERWHELMING!

we played the "21points" and apparently i lose around ten bucks or more. i couldnt stop laughing when my youngest sister kept resisting my dad from putting big bets while she puts her little 10cents down to bet. and she brings oranges wherever she plays. HAHAHAS.

most of them squeezed into my rooom, and im left to clear the mess :( oh wells.

i didnt expect cny to be that fun. i guess im looking forward to next year's and of course, more house visitings :D

2008-02-09T01:53:00.000-08:00

Rescue Me

When im alone the world is such a different place

Sometimes its hard to keep the smile upon my face

It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down

Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

Chorus:

When everyting starts crashing down

When all I know falls to the ground

When darkness comes and I can't see

You're always there to rescue me

Just when I think that Ive got it figured out

You open my eyes and let me see that theres no doubt

But you've got it all within the power of your hand

It seems like the more I know the less I understand

I wonder if Ill make it through this darkest night

I need to know your strength in me gonna win this fight

Im reaching out wont you take my hand show me to the light

I know you're by my side

It seems like I try so hard and still I let you down

Its taken so long but now theres one thing that Ive found

You're always there to rescue me

tonight i feel sad and a little moody. I guess each of our hearts, we long to be sought after, to feel essential, to be needed in situations, loved by a group, treasured by an individual. But God reminded me of this song and affirmed me that I was and am rescued by Him in times of down-ness and no matter how i feel (: He is the king of all Kings who knows all my needs and desires. And He also reminds me about how he treasure dearly and gave his unfailing love to all. thank you Lord for loving me (:

2008-02-04T12:35:00.000-08:00

LATEE UPDATEE

so sorry.

but its YELLOW RIBBON! (:

2008-02-04T07:20:00.000-08:00

AFTER SOL, BEFORE CHURCH

at Raffles Marina (: cass dad brought us thereeeee.

2008-02-03T22:56:00.000-08:00

radiant sunshine!

God has blessed me with 2 amazing people! (: my two spiritual sisters, wunyen and cass! wunyen can entertained and cass can make me laugh. haha actually they can make me SMILE! they never fail to encourage me in both my physical and spiritual life and in many other issues in life :) im feeling really thankful for you both now.

friday enjoyable and painful with the two of them! enjoyable because of the company and painful because of the sore and tired legs. but still the shopping was fruitful with them. pictures updateee!

same bag, same black, same white.

soaking in the glory of 'wine'

thought of the day.

prolly disgusted by honey stars in soup. HAHAHA.

lovelove! (:

2008-01-30T21:11:00.000-08:00

superwoman not!

I've been feeling quite down the past half of for the past few days. I really want to shine for God (in love, in patience, in kindness...) and put complete trust in Him but when I feel the workload heavily upon my shoulders, my human nature takes over. There's a self-conflct within me. I feel quite discouraged as well. I feel like I'm not cut-out in a lot of areas. I need God's eternal encouragement telling me he believes in me. I wanna be someone people can be proud of :( keep me in prayer please.

january is coming to an end (: was flipping through my scheduler yesterday. and i could see the numerous projects, presentations and reports that our class has done. loads of makeup lessons too! and many many other things.

my younger sister gave me this! and i think its gooood for an advertisement like that! (:

i cant juggle all this on my own, but im thankful that i've got a God who is my strength and my rock (: He guided me through this month! though there were ups and downs along the way, but God still sustains.

Thank you, Lord,

for the trials that come my way.

In that way I can grow each day

And thank you, Lord,

for the patience those trials bring.

In that process of growing,

I can learn to care.

2008-01-30T21:10:00.000-08:00

had dinner at NYDC after church to celebrate wenling's birthday! i did enjoyed myself and thanks to joeyboy who did the planning and all (:

2008-01-25T21:42:00.000-08:00

headed down to chinatown today after school (: was rather crowded and super HOT! but still i enjoyed myself. i thought it will be nice to get the chinese-new-year kind of mood. somehow seeing people come and go, really amazes me on the fact that God is a creator of heaven and earth, inculding the sun and stars in the night. remember HELLO SUNSHINE! (: (: (:

this whole week i havent been feeling like im a good friend and sister. i want to but fail the expectations of people and myself :( i dont know why too. but i was reminded about this lovely song that has encouraged many people! God knows are my disappointments, struggles and desires. Dear Lord more of you and less of me. help me to be a good friend, help me to relate.

Show Me How To Live

Day after day

I know You're talking to me

Your Word speaks louder than this World

And when I prayYour Spirit overwhelms me

Reveals the things that I must know

Show me how to live

Teach how to pray

Let all I think and say please You Lord

Show me how to live

Teach me in your ways

So I can walk with You all my days

Your Word speaks louder than this

Your Word speaks louder than this world

2008-01-23T21:26:00.000-08:00

today straight after excel presentation, they headed to my house to make a video! (: especially for the macro project. hope our efforts are worthwhile! or not i bet the whole class will burst out into laughter each time they are reminded of. hehs.

i really really enjoyed myself today! and was really glad that they are my classmates (:

in the laughter and all, i realise projects arent that bad which i thank God for that! it could be fun with the right company :D

at the end of the day, we were all tired and weary. but still, there is a need for jumps for joy! (:

2008-01-20T21:37:00.000-08:00

You breathed into my world

And gave me life

You are placed above all that I love

I live to praise you God

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Many things have been going through my mind and have been happening but i havent had the time to journal them down.

yesterday had prayer meeting and sltc. sltc was the last meeting. and what caught my attention was the sharing of what we have learnt through out the whole sltc. it refreshes our mind in those things that had gone through (: and it amazes me in which pastor shared. on how Jesus came and meet the felt needs of his disciples. the process might be tough, but Jesus carried on and sacrifices his time and unending love to them. isnt it really touching :D

today had powerstation in church, this time was different. cause kahyuen was with me! (: i thought that God is a faithful God who keeps us through to the end. after service, i felt really bad as to not accompanying cass and company to the chalet and all. yaaa. sorry :((

The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;

my God is my rock, in whom i take refuge in.

Psalm 18:2

2008-01-17T22:47:00.000-08:00

let there have sunshine now please.

i need to find someone to talk to.

2008-01-13T10:31:00.000-08:00

100% Man 100% God

projects and tests are streaming in. and I felt like the boat of mine hit an iceberg. not a really huge iceberg, but enough to make me feel intimidated and feel as if i was crashing. Lousiness went deep into my heart. when all I saw in myself were faults, inadequacies and thoughts of not being able to handle the various tasks and assignment. In many of those moments I allowed the lies of Satan to be thrown hard at me.

I was in vulnerability that I allowed Satan to have a foothold on other issues I was facing. I could recall how much I didn't want to go to church due to unfinished homework and unstudied tests. But God didn't let go of me when all I wanted to do was escape.

discipline came. telling myself that i must studied up the last topic and unexpectedly, i was left with 4 pages to finish up studying. i thought i've got a huge chuck to memorise. God specialise in miracles! these little miracles really made my heart feel warm (:

With Christ in the vessel,
I can smile at the storm

I can do everything

through him who gives me strength.

Because he lives, I can face tomorrow

2008-01-10T20:40:00.000-08:00

Emergency Phone Number

WHEN ,

You are sad, phone John 14

You have sinned, phone Psalm 51

You are facing danger, phone Psalm 91

People have failed you, phone Psalm 27

It feels as though God is far from you, phone Psalm 139

Your faith needs stimulation, phone Hebrews 11

You are alone and scared, phone Psalm 23

You are worried, phone Matthew 8:19-34

You are hurt and critical, phone 1 Corinthians 13

You wonder about Christianity, phone 2 Corinthians 5:15-18

You feel like an outcast, phone Romans 8:31-39

You are seeking peace, phone Matthew 11:25-30

It feels as if the world is bigger than God, phone Psalm 90

You need Christ like insurance, phone Romans 8:1-30

You are leaving home for a trip, phone Psalm 121

You are praying for yourself, phone Psalm 87

You require courage for a task, phone Joshua 1

Inflation's and investments are hogging your thoughts, phone Mark 10:17-31

You are depressive, phone Psalm 27

Your bank account is empty, phone Psalm 37

You lose faith in mankind, phone 1 Corinthians 13

It looks like people are unfriendly, phone John 15

You are losing hope, phone Psalm 126

You feel the world is small compared to you, phone Psalm 19

You want to carry fruit, phone John 15

Paul's secret for happiness, phone Colossians 3:12-17

With big opportunity/ discovery, phone Isaiah 55

To get along with other people, phone Romans 12

ALTERNATE NUMBERS

For dealing with fear, call Psalm 47

For security, call Psalm 121:3

For assurance, call Mark 8:35

For reassurance, call Psalm 145:18

ALL THESE NUMBERS MAY BE PHONED DIRECTLY.

NO OPERATOR ASSISTANCE IS NECESSARY.

ALL LINES TO HEAVEN ARE AVAILABLE 24 HOURS A DAY.

FEED YOUR FAITH, AND DOUBT WILL STARVE TO DEATH.

isnt God just so great? (:

2008-01-08T20:31:00.000-08:00

training was gooood today! thank God for the fine weather, not too hot, not too cold (: i haven gone for training for like a month already. and was quite fearful that instead of hitting the ball, i will hit the wind. get it get it? HAHAHAS! but the company was lovely ((: without them, i wouldnt be there anymore.

today's lunch was quite unusual. we had instant noodles. reason behind was we were sick of north canteen food, koufu is too cold, south canteen is too far. yaaaaa. but its really heartwarming to see all the clicks come together and eat (:

i would say that poly life isnt as exciting as secondary school life, and who says poly life is slack? SO NOT! working in teams isnt that easy, projects deadlines are surrounding me daily, you worry about people or even myself able to do a good job in it.

but nonetheless, i praise God very much that im able to be educated and for placing where i am now (: i pretty much cant figure out why im studying this course, or why im studying what im studying now. but great plans is in God's hands, and i believe that He will show me soooon! :D

till then!

2008-01-06T21:36:00.000-08:00

when you feel dull and all, seeing different bright colours really makes your day (:

Dear Lord,

Joey feels drained doing it on her own tonight yet she knows she is not on her own. She will persevere because you are the one who gives her strength to carry on.

my best friend (:

2008-01-05T11:30:00.000-08:00

TO DO THINGS before chinese new year:

IKEA with daddy to get pillows, bedsheets, frames and other things.
get my head studying! exams.
spring clean
shopping!
memorise at least 25 verses (:
finish up a book. haven been reading after the O's!
stop cancelling piano lessons :( practice practice!

oh wells. hope i can do all these before chinese new year. it seems hectic with schoolwork and all.

loads of love, xoxo!

2008-01-05T11:24:00.000-08:00

three days of school was shagged! due to the overwhelming projects and all. plus makeup lessons. all these are really killing me. cum a whole lots of tests coming up! oh wells. that is school (:

im so so broke now :( the countdown's cab fare and all. i felt annoyed when my sister doesnt pay up! hahahas. together we are broke. anyways. countdown party was definately GREAT! was told to wear uniform, but somehow i forgotten to bring it out. AHHHHS. though cvss uniforms looks like maid, but super comfortable! (:

this year started quite ooookay, but i believe that God has plans for me! :D

2008-01-01T15:36:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year!

it has been a year of victory (:

victory with fearful-ness.

victory with speaking up.

victory with going deep with God.

victory with relationships.

victory with cellmates.

victory with thanksgiving.

Thank God for victory in Christ! the closeness that the cellmates have given, the rides, the meals, the time spent, the effort put in and all. this year has made a impact and difference, truely a wonderful year for me :D

Im grateful for those who picked me up when i fell. for those who kept encouraging me. for those who asked 'how was my week?' for those who helped me in my spiritual life. for those who are my close friends.

2008 has come. teach me to embrace it as a year of sabbath.

2007-12-30T00:20:00.000-08:00

me and my sister decided to bake muffins. and i thought it was relatively successful (:

dont they look niceeeee!

2007-12-28T01:19:00.000-08:00

byebye holidays

school is starting
countdown party is coming
I need to finish up the project's powerpoints
I finished the marketing and effectivewriting reports! (:
i've got a haircut
my braces hurt currently :( super tight!

2007-12-25T22:42:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

this year christmas was rather very different from last year. last year was well-spent with spiritual family and this year was well-spent with physical family (: this christmas was rather special as i have got to know the true meaning of christmas and im gonna TELL THE WORLD!

on saturday we had the bukit batok event as volunteer. the cookies, balloons and all were like fun! in the wet weather, still we manage to survive and started selling to raise funds. i was glad to know more friends like zarinar, kaiyen (: and ohhhh, cass and qiming won in the lucky draw! i think they will be sooo willing to change it with the icecream maker. HAHAHA.

on sunday, had the christmas event :D headed to cass house to discuss about how to spend christmas eve. and yaaaaa, i ended up spending christmas eve in TELL THE WORLD and at home. couldnt join the rest :( in the movie and all. oh wells.

monday, wenyan and me baked cookies! super tiring and soooo sooooo sick of cookies and muffins.

BYES!

2007-12-23T02:42:00.000-08:00

chalet part two

aiya, block mee.

okays, trying hard.
finally!
and here i ammmmm (:

super drained and tired. event after event. it was a frontier adventure for me.

(:

2007-12-20T02:25:00.000-08:00

回憶總是美好的.

回憶起過去這十幾年

打從有印象起來...

沒出門的感覺還真的有點怪

關上門後呼吸到的一口風總是會讓人馬上清醒

感覺到很清醒

我好像應該要感恩

至少我還能睜開眼

感恩.

2007-12-20T00:21:00.000-08:00

cell chalet cum retreat! (:

i had much fun there. cycle, talks, cookings, swimming and moreeeee. i havent really enjoyed myself since holidays started until like NOW. i enjoyed!

the pictures arent in sequence due to laziness. hehs.

off we head to the chalet.

that's all.

lovelove!

2007-12-17T09:17:00.000-08:00

the rats! they inspired us on how to scare people off in the bus.

imagine the bus jerked, and the rats .... HAHA.

5 blind mice, see how they run!

we headed off to giant to buy some stuffs for the upcoming cell chalet (: we missed the bus stop though we pressed it. and the next bus stop is like a highway away. but still we headed back.

game of the day: titititi tu!

(: (: (: (: (: (: (:

had sltc session before church with the friends we invited. this time was different, it was at jessica's house. we baked muffins and cookies and make balloons too!

as we invited friends over and see some familiar faces, my heart felt really warm (:

i could see the commitment in them as they faithfully cont' the session. the dedication and paitence as they twisted balloons after balloons.

we were taught that though we had much fun in this process, but still its the giving out and blessing of people that is important :D i thank God for these people in my life!

2007-12-14T23:30:00.000-08:00

first of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAZEL! (:

you have been such a lovely! although the face ah, cannot be judge by the cover ah, but still you are LOUD LAHHS! HAHAHHAS! fiercer then me uh! but still you are loveeeee <3

today is the last day of school and most of us are prolly in the good mood (: discussion on how to spend the time out with friends and family, how to meetup, what we will miss and all.

headed down to town with yenfenn. the rate that she is spending is incredible. HAHAHAS. that is what her hobby is, SHOPPING. oh yaaaaa, all i want for christmas is ..... (: whoooohoooo! i know i know. aha!

last but not least, i finally know why facebook is addictive.

2007-12-14T09:31:00.000-08:00

i got tummyache.
let me run to the toilet first.

2007-12-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

school is coming to an end with another 3 more days. i bet every poly students are so looking forward to it. that includes myself (: heh heh!

im still running after you Jesus (:

2007-12-10T00:54:00.000-08:00

i felt really blessed as i came back from the sltc retreat (:
God has shown me his grace, mercy and love in a special way. its a way that you never thought that God could touch you in this way. what really impacted me most was the hug that chermaine gave me. at that point in time i really needed that. and God knows. He loves, he gives, he blesses, he is just so crazy over each and every one of us.

came back from cass house just now. i was first to reach as i wanted to use the computer. haha. then came along yunyu, leonard and joeyboy. thank joey for the cookies he baked. was really nice! (: i went home so much earlier then expected as mum wanted me to be home early. thought its just a hour spending there, but i thought it was niceee.

i thought that sometimes gathering and talking to each other really brings the relationship closer and getting to know each other better. and i felt really glad when i know i have a family that is always supporting and showing care and love to you (:

2007-12-05T20:34:00.000-08:00

Something that whacked up the whole sermon last week was a joke by Nick Vujicic. It was when his friends hide him in the overhead cabin, waiting to freak out someone who is trying to put the luggage up. he will probably go "BOO! HAHAHA!"

what caught me was the optimistic in everything that he faces, although he doesnt have limbs and arms. i didnt think i was able to tolerate that fact or rather there will be much hatred and anger in me.

however, he shown the victory of God. in difficult circumstances, he choose to believe God and every promise of God counter attack every negative comment passed in his life (:

then 376, a number came to my mind. i didnt know what it was, but somehow felt that it was linked to the bible and i turned to page 376. there was a higlighted verse.

"He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."

indeed, God works in miracles! teach me how to embrace miracles :D

2007-12-04T11:30:00.000-08:00

if there is no governent/law in Singapore, what would you do?

the thing that you are thinking now,

is actually your inner desire.

2007-12-03T19:12:00.000-08:00

face flushed. lips dry.

im sick :(

and my body is aching.

thanks to peanut butter and lack of water.

&&& tml is accounting tests

2007-12-03T19:08:00.000-08:00

IKEA PHOTOS!

where the YANG MEH MEH (YMM) intruded (:

spot the YMM.
the muscles girl and the thai boy

siblings loveeee.
beware of con sharpness.

tired peopleeee.
HAHAHAHAHS!
ballerina wannaaabe!
i couldnt help laughing as they amused themselves with the trolley and stuffs.

please step behind the yellow line when watching tveee.
quoted by cass :D
i can see that pillows are valueable.

starrrry!

its the girls thing (:

see how YMM impacted her!

off we goooo.

hehs. was super niceee and fun to go out with them! (:

cass blog has moreeee pictures!
http://my-wonderspot.blogspot.com

2007-11-30T21:31:00.000-08:00

because I have Jesus,

Not because I have myself.

its friday today. the last day of the week! and everytime i will feel super tired and shagged after a week. finally all tutorials and lectures are cleared and back to another cycle of tutorial and lectures. oh my.

anyways. had lunch together with roger and i thought it was nice. sharing with both our spiritual walks and all. what really caught me was, God has plans for each and everyone of us. this thing kept ringing in my mind for the whole week! (:

watched 'love actually' today and it was niceeeeeeeee! catch it people. although it like screened years or months ago. cant blame. i didnt even know brad pitt was hottttt until like 3weeks ago? ha.

2007-11-28T18:01:00.000-08:00

today i passed by a booth in my school whereby we are able to write our condolences message to the dragonboat people who died in a tragedy. there were three of them from my school. and that point in time, i was thinking how vulnerable life can be. the family members must be grieved over this and how this upsets schoolmates.

and the strange thing is, the 2nd question that popped out of my head was, am i going to hell or heaven when i die?

hmmmmmmmmm.

2007-11-27T13:28:00.000-08:00

it takes 43 muscles to frown and only 17 to smile (:

2007-11-25T22:47:00.000-08:00

in the midst of handling two tests in one week is stressing me out! :( but the chat with people around really helps :D its kinda silly of laughing at your screen, but it is niceeeeee!

this week was tedious. somehow many thoughts just come and go. its hard to express out. im tired and all. but stilll, im meeeeee. i was reminded where in everything pray and presents all requests to God.

stayed over at cass house on saturday (: was fun. before that, pooled with leonard, cass, yunyu, wenling and joey. i think its hard to believe that i pooooled. so weird. ohwells. dinnered and headed to cass house. what was hilarous was the wayne's joke. i totally laughed till my stomach hurts. i love the night chat with yunyu and cass :D thanks!

sltc is fun (: the ballon sculpting. seeing the many colours really make one day happier :D

in His love, Jesus lover of my soul.

2007-11-22T12:40:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Alpha!

tennis was slack today. its like just minutes after i stepped into the court and lessons ended. oh wells. today was alpha's birthday and we celebrated for him as well as the cake smashing session! poor guy.

school has been tiring. been filled with tests, projects and moreeeeeee. i was reminded that work is blessing and a worship. and it is important when the daily running chores can get so routine and boring, God is still providing us and giving us strength to carry on (: he plans to prosper us!

2007-11-21T23:37:00.000-08:00

my second post! the access project made me feel down the whole morning. oh wells.

went to town today with huaiyue hazel yiting shiling and yenfenn. i couldnt help but to start laughing whenever they say about yiting. banging onto the taxi stand pole while waving to her friend! i felt so much better after the outing (: lovelove!

pictures updates!

christmas is coming :D

2007-11-21T10:24:00.000-08:00

i am feeling so down after the access presentation :(

2007-11-20T22:14:00.000-08:00

i dont know what i just did :( all my documents on the desktop are like gone! within seconds! and my files are accumulated by months and days! oh man. i make alot of mistakes now a days. that happened yesterday.

and today, i dont know why my marketing project is lost too in the thumbdrive. i was almost droven to craziness. i did that for two weeks and all gone :((

HOWEVER HOWEVER HOWEVER, yenfenn save my day! :D i send her my project and its in her recycling bin. love her truck loads! i couldnt help but to smile at the screen when she mention that! HAHAHAHAS. thank you yenfenn! (:

hmmmm. school has been rather hectic. its still all about tutorials, lectures and projects. and and and everyone is sick and tired of school food! haha.

okays, i think i better start on my homework!

bye people! lovelove!

i think we look pale o:

the differences!

2007-11-19T22:07:00.000-08:00

i think blogger would be a better choice (:
livejournal is kind of a chore in logging in and out to post comments.
oh wells!